i love the way i'm loved.
i love the way i'm hated.
i'm fine,
as long as i see a smile in return.

crazy-
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OFF TRACKED, BACK TRACKED, ON TRACK.

now's the time to shine. do I get the chance?
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fill my stomach with butterflies, will you?


i've seen for myself, it's time to settle down for real business.
bottle up my feelings is just a way out.
that's the only way.

tired & restless.

crazy_
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Now little lisa is only 9 years old
She's trying to figure out why the world is so cold
Why she's all all alone and they never met her family
Mama's always gone and she never met her daddy
Part of her is missing and nobody will listening
Mama is on drugs gettin high up in the kitchen
Bringing home men at different hours of the night
Starting with laughs--usually endin in a fight
Sneak into her room while her mamas knocked out
Trying to have his way and little lisa says 'ouch'
She tries to resist but then all he does is beat her
Tries to tell her mom but her mama don't believe her
Lisa is stuck up in the world on her own
Forced to think that hell is a place called home
Nothing else to do but some get some clothes and pack
She says she's 'bout to run away and never come back.

Little nicole is only 10 years old
She's steady trying to figure why the world is so cold
Why she's not pretty and nobody seems to like her
Alcoholic step dad always wanna strike her
Yells and abuses, leaves her with some bruises
Teachers ask questions she making up excuses
Bleeding on the inside, crying on the out
It's only one girl really knows what she about
Her name is lil' stacy and they become friends
Promise that they always be tight till the end
Until one day lil' stacy gets shot
A drive by bullet went stray up on her block
Now nicole stuck up in the world on her own
Forced to think that hell is a place called home
Nothing else to do but some get some clothes and pack
She says she's 'bout to run away and never come back.

Little erica is eleven years old
She's steady trying to figure why the world is so cold
So she pops x to get rid of all the pain
'Cause shes having sex with a boy who's sixteen
Emotions run deep and she thinks she's in love
So there's no protection he's using no glove
Never thinking 'bout the consequences of her actions
Living for today and not tomorrows satisfaction
The days go by and her belly gets big
The father bails out he ain't ready for a kid
Knowing her mama will blow it all outta proportion
Plus she lives poor so no money for abortion
Erica is stuck up in the world on her own
Forced to think that hell is a place called home
Nothing else to do but get her clothes and pack
She say she's about to run away and never come back.

SAD! THEY ARE ALL SO LITTLE...

crazy'
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When I was 7
They said I was strange
I noticed that my eyes and hair weren't the same
I asked my parents if I was okay
They said you're more beautiful
And that's the way, they show that they wish
That they had your smile
So my confidence was up for a while
I got real comfortable with my own style
I knew that they were only jealous 'cause

People are all the same
And we only get judged by what we do
Personality reflects name
And if I'm ugly then
So are you
So are you

There was a time when I felt like I cared
That I was shorter than everyone there
People made me feel like life was unfair
And I did things that made me ashamed
'Cause I didn't know my body would change
I grew taller than them in more ways
But there will always be the one who will say
Something bad to make them feel great

Chorus x2

Everybody talks bad about somebody and
Never realises how it affects somebody and
You bet it won't be forgotten
Envy is the only thing it could be

Chorus x2


LIFE IS JUST SO UGLY.
AND I'M THIS UGLY TOO.

crazy`
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annie,
who is sunny,
well also very crappy,
but her ''jokes'' make me happy,
she even got me a daddy,
which is really quite creepy(?)
but at times he can be funny.

ringing in my ear,
feeling she's so near,
heartbeat racing with the gears,
after many years,
she is finally standing here.


ending off, i just love her : D

crazy-
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OVERSIZED/

not fitting,
don't wish to fit in anyway.
i don't want to play around further,
let it be, let it be,
just fade away.

crazy-
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;twentythree says:
i'm hungry
NO HIATUS! says:
food food
NO HIATUS! says:
open your mouth.. ahhhhhhhhhh
;twentythree says:
eh
;twentythree says:
sound like dentist la
;twentythree says:
i don't like
NO HIATUS! says:
: B
NO HIATUS! says:
oh you go ehhhhhhhhhhhhh moooooooooooooooooooooooooo weeeeeeeeeee waaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
;twentythree says:
oh you go eh moo wee wa?
;twentythree says:
what's that?
NO HIATUS! says:
you dont like ahhh what
NO HIATUS! says:
so go eeeeehh moo wee waaa, at wa the food will be fed into your mouth
;twentythree says:
wow, so fascinating! i never knew that!
;twentythree says:
what food? HAHA
NO HIATUS! says:
hmm..
NO HIATUS! says:
a whole chicken
NO HIATUS! says:
HAHAHAHaHAHaHAHHAHAaAA
NO HIATUS! says:
imagine
NO HIATUS! says:
WHAHA so funny
;twentythree says:
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
;twentythree says:
well you must be the chicken then?
;twentythree says:
wow. my mouth is so big
;twentythree says:
i am a cobra?
NO HIATUS! says:
cobra is chicks
NO HIATUS! says:
ehh?
NO HIATUS! says:
when are you eating me?
NO HIATUS! says:
thats so sad!!!
;twentythree says:
you fed yourself to me what!
NO HIATUS! says:
when so?
NO HIATUS! says:
i said its a chicken
NO HIATUS! says:
i didnt say chicken me
NO HIATUS! says:
sounds wrong
NO HIATUS! says:
its like kill me
;twentythree says:
LOL
NO HIATUS! says:
except its chicken me
NO HIATUS! says:
crap!



that's how the CMN language came about -
* CHICKEN ME meaning KILL ME!
* zeroness meaning randomness!!

dingdong, okay end of lessons.

crazy.
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crazy turns monster in the night,
hopping down the street in the dimmest light,
imitating that she was the fabulous knight,
hoping to save the world by getting into fights,
resulting herself into a bad bad plight.


crazy
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OPTIMISTIC

fear for the worst to arrive, hoping it will just turn out
fine, well, most likely not. HALLUCINATION; FEAR.


PESSIMISTIC

prepared for the worst, and most of the time, things turn out better.
FEARLESS.

crazy.
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CONFUSED,
PUZZLED,
I'M NOT SURE.
NOT IN THE MOOD FOR ANYTHING.

yawning till i tear.

crazy.
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HALF AN HOUR NAP

the sweetest time of the day.



interruptions not allowed.
severe punishment to those who violate.

-smacked by me.
-give me a sweet.
-well, i'm sure i will just ignore you (give you the blur look) and continue sleeping. (THE WORST PUNISHMENT)
cause you can't talk to me : D HAHA

crazy.
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virtual. imagination.

smiles are my best friend, not.
they cover up my lies,
they dry my tears,
they shield my broken heart,
well enough, they killed me in the end.
suffocate.

optimistic is always better than pessimistic, not.
higher hopes ends with greater falls.
pessimistic knows me best,
it shows me what's my potentials are,
and falls will never be that painful.
well enough, i will never go far.
limitations.

hiding is my greatest weapon, not.
in the dark where I'm alone,
where lights can't shine on me,
run far till the end of the world,
I'm sure there's the silence i always desire.
well enough, I'll cry till i melt away.
loneliness.

confused is what I'm feeling now,
ignore is what i want to do,
reality is what i need to face at the end of the day.
sadly to say, daydream never last.
where Earth continues to rotate,
and Thursday is coming its way.

crazy
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there are many more stories about accidents for me. since i'm always falling down, cause partially i'm quite blind? i can even choke while drinking water and eating (SLOWLY). maybe cause i didnt stop talking when i'm eating? okay whatever, why aren't i fending for myself?




does this explain why i'm abnormal now cause all these accidents do have a certain impact on how my brain is going to function right?

crazy here.
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clement fell while doing a handstand. he is required to go for stitching.
he called me early in the morning, okay it is about 1045am, to ask me about my experience..

LESSON LEARNT : don't try doing handstand without a mattress or without someone guiding you. AND NO WEARING OF SPECS OR WATCHES WHILE DOING PE OR DANCE (more advisable)

well, maybe i shall share my experience.. as usual, it is stupid.

it was way back when i was i think Primary one? well, i was really young. and my maid was about to leave us. and i actually thought i wouldn't have any maid after her, so i decided to learn how to mop (i thought i had to do the housework!!!!) this shows how sensible i WAS WAS WAS!!! well, i believe i'm still sensible (?), maybe not AS sensible. then i think the mop was alittle taller than me, and yes obvious enough i didn't have the strength to squeeze the water, thus the floor.. IT WAS WET! then i started to play with the mop by stepping on the it and slide about. and yes, with very little friction, no doubt i fell and hit my chin straight on the floor.

BLOOD....

then my maid brought me to the clinic, either by bus or walk lah. and the doctor was shocked, well enough no one drove us there. and he suggested us to go to the hospital, and we cabbed home to wait for my dad. everyone warned me NOT to remove the tissue so to stop the blood flowing.. and they actually kept asking me to let them see the wound!!! LIKE HUH?! then why can't i remove and see the wound myself, i was curious REALLY REALLY CURIOUS...

then i reached the SGH, i think, it is err, one of the hospitals we have in Singapore.. i went in and yes operation started. the doctors told me after they've injected, i will sleep. well, i believe them, and the problem was- i was waiting for the moment to sleep yet in the end i listened to their conversation the whole time, about Christmas. it was quite hilarious though i can't really remember about the content.. and by the time they finish i was still wondering when was i going to sleep.. i got scolded after the operations by my parents and well enough, they was amused by my explanation..

7 stitches 3 injections :) this shows that I've ''gone through alot'' :D

till this day, the scar remains, not very obvious though. it is indeed a good experience for me as a lesson, but i didn't exactly learn that CAREFUL is an important word for me still.

well, i have another bad fall while playing basketball, but i'm lazy to type....

-crazy

PS: to clement: please do take care yea. well, pray for speedy recovery, and please be careful the next time round, it is the crucial time now alright? :)
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DRENCHED. well, i walked to Yio Chu Kang MRT from school with my friend. well, it suddenly started pouring really heavily, we enjoy the shower of blessing and yes, WET! well, facing the traffic light, we saw a lady near by and my friend dared me to go under her umbrella, and yes i did, without alarming the lady. by the time she realised our presence, she was shocked - TWO PATHETIC FREAKS. well, she went, '' you two didn't bring umbrella?'' i thought that was obvious enough. but that's not the point, the point is SHE OFFERED TO SHELTER US! but still, cause when we were few cm away from the shelter, she ran for her bus and so we are still wet.

WELL THANK YOU AUNTIE FOR YOUR KINDNESS.

then, i took MRT to AMK and walked in the drizzle to library. and yes i was dripping wet. AND BRR, it was hell COLD. I've got to wait for my friend and finally i got myself changed into a dry tee shirt. and finally clement came and i borrowed his wind breaker. YEAH THANK YOU!

headache, chicken leg student meal, sleep, sweets, physics, MP3, friends.... that's for the day.

OHH i slept at 8PM yesterday!!! CLAP CLAP CLAP AND A PAT and thus the conclusion is 30 marks gone for Amath :D :/

-crazy
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COMPUTERS FEED ON COOKIES


NEXT TIME YOUR COMPUTER IS NAUGHTY, DONT FEED IT COOKIES : D



crazy.
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'' I SEE THUNDER, I HEAR LIGHTNING ! ''



FASCINATING QUOTE FROM ANONYMOUS.





crazy: D
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ZERO-NESS TO THE CORE!
GREAT :D




i could be as cold, you never know
_crazy
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HELLO

everyday is candid camera day
but today
is weirdo day
and we will post weirdo's pictures up here
so as to commemorate the day

enjoy!






















at subway, eating
and...
making a very retarded face
























and...
looking genuinely surprised.
and he actually looks like he's smiling for the camera.

you all should know who i am, right?
the one who has the pictures.
well in case you don't know,
then you suck, but anyway.

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'' omocha ga nashi desu''

well, ive written it wrongly

and that means

the toy is chopsticks

:/ when i think i wanted to say i like toys or something like that..


i said myself BAKA ( this means stupid right? cant really remember) ,

and well i was bored so i told my friend she is KABA (without knowing that such word exists.)



and it means, IM STUPID, MY FRIEND IS A HIPPO -.-





_CRAZY.
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WIN WIN SITUATION : )
LOVELY.

CRAZY SIGNING OFF`
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15 things you probably never knew or thought about;

1. At least 5 people in this world love you so much they would die for you.

2. At least 15 people in this world love you in some way.

3. The only reason anyone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you.

4. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even they don't like you.

5. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep.

6. You mean the world to someone.

7. If not for you,someone may not be living.

8. You are special and unique.

9. Someone that you don't even know exists loves you.

10. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it.

11. When you think you have no chance of getting what you want, you probably won't get it, but if you believe in yourself, probably,sooner or later, you will get it.

12. When you think the world has turned its on you, take a look. You most likely turned your back on the world.

13. Always remember the compliments you received. Forget all those rude remarks.

14. Always tell someone how you feel about them ;you will feel much better when they know.

15. If you have a great friend, take the time to let them know that they are great.

-taken from kyrie's blog

there are many times when i faced little problems and i tend to make a big fuss out of it, well, i always thought i was alone and that nothing can be achieved. i thought i was alone. I THOUGHT, how selfish is that.. however, I've come to realised, no matter what, God will always be there and it all depends on us, whether we want to listen to Him.
WELL, friends out there, you know who you are, i suppose.. thank you for being there for me when i faced emotional struggles, to listen to all my frustrations. and sorry for the trouble caused...

CRAZY SIGNING OFF`
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this was from my physics textbook
in figure 5.6, a force of 10 N is applied to a spanner to tighten a nut.

!!!

pifflesticks.
i think that's a very cute word.
hahahah.

i am nut
and i do not need to be tightened
thank you very much




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MINI COOPER/

JOY RIDE FOR 10 MINUTES
JOY RIDE FOR 24/7

it is sexy, cherry, well all the positive adjectives you can think of..

and what happens if joy is my friend?
OH MY?
well at least these are all compliments.
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HELLOO PEOPLE!!! MADNESS IS HERE!!!! MUHAHAHAHAHAHHA WAHAHAHAHAHAHA. ((((((((: FOR THE 100000000+++++++....TIME, I'M NOT MILK! AHHHH.


YEA., I'M NOT MILK. I'M MADNESS. M FOR?
M
A
D
N
E
S
S
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YAY! I SHALL RECITE THE PLEDGE.

AHEMM.. (CLEARS THROAT)
we the crazy madness nut,pledged thatwe will spout nonsense.forever crazy,mad,nutty,bringing joy to the world.and bringing zaniel out of denial???? WAIT WAITWAIT. WHAT HAS ZANIEL AND DENIAL GOT TO DO WITH THE PLEDGE? I MEAN CMN? AH WHTAVER, WE'RE CRAZY, MAD AND NUTTY ANYWAY. WAHAHAHHA.
OK CONTINUE:

,and work towards our motto..TO BE CRAZY, MAD AND NUTTY CITIZENS OF THE WORLD AND TO LET THE WHOLE WORLD BE AFFECTED BY US!!! WAHAHAHHAHA.......

by madness (((((((((:
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where is madness.
where is madness.
stupid milk.
stupid milk.
madness is missing.
madness is missing.
she is mad.
she is mad.


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we the crazy madness nut,
pledged that
we will spout nonsense.
forever crazy,
mad,
nutty,
bringing joy to the world.
and bringing zaniel out of denial,
and work towards our motto..
well, havent thought of it just yet..


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nothing is more than a smile.
and crazy is a monster in the night.
RAWR!!!!! ain't i just so scary...
: D oh shit before attacking anyone..
both feet are numbed.. :/


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WELL DONE.
perfect. LOL.


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HELLO
SO WE'RE BORED.


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